We had a rough weekend at our house.
There were some fun things. The kids and I went back to the comic book store. We’ve decided to make it a monthly outing. I also got to hang out with my niece and nephew Sunday night.
My nephew is about 6 months older than Littlest Brother, and my niece is 6 months younger than Littlest Brother. While we were there my nephew told me that Littlest Brother is his best friend.
I did some knitting this weekend. I even tried some embroidery.
I also drank a Coke and ate some Kit-Kats.
And I thought a lot about why I blog.
I’ve blogged for different reasons.
When I started it was to share pictures and stories of my kids with family and friends who lived far away.
But lately I’ve been blogging for me.
As a creative outlet.
As a way to connect and meet to new people.
As a release.
What I haven’t blogged about much is the stress we’ve had at our house the last couple of months.
Blogging about my twins is hard sometimes, because they are getting older. And I feel like I have to be careful what I share about them.
But some of my favorite blogs are the ones that are honest. That make you feel connected. So I’m going to try to find that balance. Between sharing what affects me and not sharing too much so I can still protect my kids.
The twins face a lot of health issues. One of them is diagnosed as Autism Spectrum/Asperger’s. Which makes him very bright and creative, but also gives him a lot of social problems. He has a lot of anxiety and social situations are very difficult for him.
Which makes them hard for me as well.
Because he says and does things that are weird or inappropriate sometimes.
And then people stare.
And I try to calm him down and get him out of whatever situation we are in.
I joke sometimes that I wish I could carry around a sign that says ‘it’s okay, he has Asperger’s’. But sometimes I’m not really joking.
Which brings me back to why it is I blog.
I blog because creating things helps me relax. And while I knit I often find a lot of clarity.
I blog to give myself a place to be me.
And because no blog post is complete without a picture, here is the hat I’m working on for myself
I read a story once, and I probably shared it with you, but I can’t find it anymore, about how we should all be more tender with one another because we truly don’t know what someone else may be dealing with. And it still surprises me how many people don’t recognize the silent diseases that abound.
My sign would be depression.
Having him as my child has definitely changed how I see everyone around me.
I love you so much!! He is a wonderful boy and we are lucky to have all our boys. It’s amazing how much kinder we can all be simply because we know that others suffer too, and they are doing the best they can, just as we are….
I love you, too. Thanks.
You are so much stronger than I think I would be. Our Heavenly Father sent these boys to you because he knew how hard you would work to champion their causes, teach them His gospel and help the rest of us understand more about the world around us. Love ya.
Thanks, Jenni. Love you, too.
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kelly thompson says
Hey I have twins to, boy/girl I also wonder how much is too much at times…I enjoyed this- saying hi from joy and gladness.
Thank you, Kelly.
The Reeds says
Thanks for sharing and for being honest and raw. It is so hard to find that balance where are families are concerned but blogs are so much about expression and meeting people where we’re at. Oh technology… I’m thankful you blog.
Julie is Coco and Cocoa says
Thank you, Georgia! And thank you for being here, reading, and commenting 🙂