We had a rough weekend at our house.
There were some fun things. The kids and I went back to the comic book store. We’ve decided to make it a monthly outing. I also got to hang out with my niece and nephew Sunday night.
My nephew is about 6 months older than Littlest Brother, and my niece is 6 months younger than Littlest Brother. While we were there my nephew told me that Littlest Brother is his best friend.
I did some knitting this weekend. I even tried some embroidery.
I also drank a Coke and ate some Kit-Kats.
And I thought a lot about why I blog.
I’ve blogged for different reasons.
When I started it was to share pictures and stories of my kids with family and friends who lived far away.
But lately I’ve been blogging for me.
As a creative outlet.
As a way to connect and meet to new people.
As a release.
What I haven’t blogged about much is the stress we’ve had at our house the last couple of months.
Blogging about my twins is hard sometimes, because they are getting older. And I feel like I have to be careful what I share about them.
But some of my favorite blogs are the ones that are honest. That make you feel connected. So I’m going to try to find that balance. Between sharing what affects me and not sharing too much so I can still protect my kids.
The twins face a lot of health issues. One of them is diagnosed as Autism Spectrum/Asperger’s. Which makes him very bright and creative, but also gives him a lot of social problems. He has a lot of anxiety and social situations are very difficult for him.
Which makes them hard for me as well.
Because he says and does things that are weird or inappropriate sometimes.
And then people stare.
And I try to calm him down and get him out of whatever situation we are in.
I joke sometimes that I wish I could carry around a sign that says ‘it’s okay, he has Asperger’s’. But sometimes I’m not really joking.
Which brings me back to why it is I blog.
I blog because creating things helps me relax. And while I knit I often find a lot of clarity.
I blog to give myself a place to be me.
And because no blog post is complete without a picture, here is the hat I’m working on for myself